What the hell. I almost hit someone just now. What was i thinking?!?! Furthermore its not some old uncle crossing the traffic light. Its quite a hot chick that got startled when i zoomed passed her while she was crossing.
What the fuck right? Exactly.
There i was driving home after sending my mum to work in the morning. Driving quite safely (though i presumed at first). Feeling the wind in my hair with the window down. Thats how i like it. No artificial coldness. Just the natural fully aspirated air through my face. And as usual, i would blast out the stereo and when it happened , "Thoughts of A Dying Atheist" was on.
And as always, i have most of my concentration on the road plus the rest on the music. But this time i was so fixated on drumming the steering wheel following the music's drumline, i totally forgot to check the pedestrian. If there was a TP behind me or anywhere, i swear i would be booked. And i think i should be due to my carelessness that startled and stop this lady in the middle of her footsteps. What was i thinking? We were close enough for me to get quite a vivid look at her and she at me. I bet she's cursing the hell out of my guts for doing such a thing. She must be thinking; What an ignorant, arrogant and bastard driver i am. And i don't blame her for that. I was such a fool
My meaning of close though we could see each other clearly, was safe enough for me to act quickly. See i'm making a right turn to Kaki Bukit. And of course, for right turns, you should check for cars from the opposite direction. There are two turning lanes and i was at the outer lane. If i was at the inner lane... Something bad could've happened. Which i was lucky enough to not be at.
This was my route. The same route i would take everytime i was heading home. The same route for me and my dad. This is also the same route my dad and i would always take in the morning to work. So i'm quite very familiar with this route to make such a silly mistake that could make me take an effort to actually write this. For my usual going back home route, i would always sub-concsiously take the inner turning lane. But this time i wonder why i took the outer lane. Was it that there was no car there and i took it due to my lack of patience for cars in front of me? or was it something else. I'm just thinking out loud here. Just trying to create a fantasizing effort no to blame myself for nothing happened. Which was actually something. Closely shaved.
When the lights turned green for me so does the green man light. I inched forward to a full halt at the middle of the junction checking for cars. Safety right? Though not the part where i did all this with full fixation on drumming the steering. When i confirmed there was no cars, i depressed the acceleration pedal swiftly and as i did so, i sensed something wrong. A sort of sense you should not have when you're driving. That split second after depressing the pedal, i realised why did the taxi beside me at the inner turning lane did not move. And as i turned my focus back to the road in front, there she was with a brown silky dress on with earphones i think.
As swiftly as i depressed the acc pedal, my right foot was back on the brake. And when i did so, my thoughts brought me back to the oncoming cars from the opposite directions. Fuck it!! i thought. And there i pressed on the acc hard on (all the while knowing she was not on the lane that i was getting on nor was she right in definite front of my car when i was doing so).
What the fuck... what the fffuck!! was the only thing on my mind and the only thing out of my mouth the instant i passed her startled looking yet, gorgeous face. Still have time to look at girls uh?! Hey im a guy. And i really am sorry about it. But shit that was close. The fear of hitting someone and the fear of being hit by all the other cars from all three of the opposite lanes altogether was tremendous. Seriously it was. Imagine trying to jam break due to imminent crashing of the halted car in front while you're travelling at least 70km/h or above. And while you're doing so, The confusion you feel when you realised no matter how hard you depress the brakes, that car in front was coming in ever so close and faster than you anticipated. Letting out a sudden gush of adrenaline and pressure through your whole existence. Same fear. Same experience. Only thing diff is nothing actually happened. Nothing...
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The Fratellis... Cool band from what i've heard. Recommended by a friend to the sweet sounds of drum intro towards the surfrock bass line. All that plus the "Ta Da Da, ta da da".
